I was so nervous about posting my first post. I was never secure about my English. languge abillities don't run at my family. My mom lives in Israel about 18 years, and she still can't read and write Hebrew fluently. She needs my help with official documents. she also has never studied English.
I think the most useful help for my English was the trip to New-York with mom when I was fifteen. Till then, I was too afraid to speak English aloud. When we were in New-York I had no choice - I had to speak English for both of us, ask for directions a prices and stuff. Otherwise we were stuck in Ocean parkway subway station until today.
It was an awful trip. Trust me - if you're fifteen, don't go abroad with my mom. It was boring as hell. We stayed at my grandparents' house. I had no one my age I can hang out with, except my remote cousin who was too busy to meet me. I couldn't go anywhere without my mom because she was worried about me traveling alone. My mom couldn't go anywhere without me because she was helpless. I had no computer. I tried to watch TV, but all the channels the had were full of commercials, and my grandparents had to watch every single news broadcast once a hour. The only thing that got me amused was a little notebook I had.
Manhattan was so great and shiny and filthy, there were beautiful graffiti creations everywhere, young people looked so busy and vital. I was eager to explore everything around me but I couldn't - I was a misrable child stuck with her mom. It's like I had a free demo sample of New-York. Saw it without permission to touch. That is one of the reasons why I want to go back, to experience it like it should be.
Today, when I had nothing to do in work, I read Emily Gould's article "Expozed" on The New York times website. They let her write the cover story about her blogging history in first person. It made me jaleuos. She mentioned another blogger, Julia Allison. I googled her and discovered she is like my parallel american blogger. Shallow, Funny, exhibitionist just like myself. The diffrence between us, are the achievements we got. While I participated in an unprofitable TV show no one watched, she broadcasted on any influencial network. While I wrote anonimous articles for rickety websites, she had coloums in some of the biggest international magazines. yay. After overcoming my local jealousy objects, I found a world class equivaelnt to aspire to.
What I wanted to say when started writing this post, I that my friens and my boyfriend laughed at me at first.
"An English blog? and who's gonna write it for you?"
"I will"
"HA HA!" they said to me.
but after I posted the first post, they were surprized to find out only some insignificant typing mistakes.
In addition, when I ran a spellcheck over my text and found out there aren't any mistakes, I sighed so loudly my coworkers thought I'm strangling.
In summery, I found out my english isn't as bad as I assumed. That's a soothing revelation to start with.
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